Middle School

It’s really depressing just to think about Middle School. One of the things that reminded me about how depressing Middle School was Promotion Picture of 8th Grade. My friends all got together and took Promotion pictures and never bothered to remind me. I ask myself sometimes, “Are they really friends or acquaintances?” Everyone always told me that Middle School was supposed to be one of the best years, but to me they were one of the worst years of my life. I really want to change the past, I just want to erase memories of Middle School as if they never happened, because someone told me that the past will catch up to you, and I guess they were right. I’ve made some friends in High School, but things in Middle School have made it kinda harder to make any new friends. I kinda got off the wrong start with some of the new people I met Freshmen Year, I just wish we can fix that. I also want to fix anything  rough that’s ever happened in Middle School, I just want High School to come by smoothly.

Friends

I wish I was a lot closer to my friends. I just don’t know how though. Most of them are probably at an acquaintance level. I wish it was more than that though. Just sitting here at home during Spring Break doing nothing. Here I see that all my friends are having a fun time with their friends going to do stuff like sleepovers, SF, etc. I guess it’s kinda too late to be asking for closer friends when we are about to part ways in less than 3 years. Having no close friends is really depressing, I just wish that High School would be different from Middle School, because Middle School I had literally no friends and some of the friends I thought I had ended up talking shit about me and leaving me at the end. Things like these make me wish that High School would just end and I would go to College. I just want to start my life over again, make good friends, and have some fun in my life. But we can’t change the past, all we could do is change the future. As of right now, I’m trying to just forget the past, and become a better person. However, people from the past is still judging me based on the past, which makes it a lot harder to change.